Friday, December 26, 2008
Hey! I'm so sorry for what happened over yesterday's dinner, and for things to turn out in such an awful way. It was my fault that i spoilt your wonderful Christmas dinner last night. There were nice river view, peaceful ambience and delicious-looking food. Everything would be perfect if not for my presence. I seriously had a diffcult time trying to fit into your conversations somehow. Yes you did tried to bring me into it but to you i just seemed not interested in it. I thought i should keep quiet one corner as you were both in your 'own worlds'. I felt that i shouldn't even be staying there as i really seemed like an 'extra' and furthermore, looked so sianz. So sorry man, that i had to spoil your Christmas Day like that. =(
After the dinner, when we part our own ways, you sms-ed me to ask about what was wrong. I felt very bad to tell the truth so i just hid it from you and made up some excuses to say that i'm fine. But somehow you got pissed off because you knew something was wrong but i refused to tell the truth. I couldn't stopped myself from thinking about it as i flipped from left to right and from right back to left but still unable to fall asleep. Eventually, i gave in and told you everything.
It went on until i lost my cool all of a sudden and blasted at you. i felt so guilty and so sad when i read your reply. I know i've scared you somehow haiz...I'm so sorry!! So sorry for every stupid things i did to spoil your mood! Fortunately, we managed to get back in good terms with each other but it was already 4+am in the morning!! Even though you KO-ed at that time, i didn't go to sleep at all. Just like that, i started off a new day without any sleep! Although i felt very tired, it was nothing compared to how sorry and guilty i was to you!!